“The issues that led me to the platform began in 2020 and continued concurrently until present day. Prior to 2020 I was "very healthy", so life humbled me right down but luckily now, I live on my terms again... <br />
A side effect of the severe ptsd is that I am someone who had regrettably become distrusting of humanity which makes me difficult to get along with at times, which is opposite of my disposition before trauma. <br />
The point is. everyone I've had the pleasure of working with has been a great experience. Dwayne, I trust fully and have full confidence in his ability to see into my character, which allows me to say whatever I am thinking without fear of judgement or self disappointment which is my own false distortion .<br />
Anyway, I've missed appointments at times due to lack of my own organization and prioritization and being overstressed from normal stuff. While I personally view that as unintentional disrespect (my job carries a lot of responsibility, hence I dont like wasting peoples time), but Dwayne has always addressed me from a kind and safe place and has the patients of a saint to manage me! Plus, I have a descent emption IQ at times I'm told at home and his approach with me is spot on and custom tailored to my unique quirky self. Im a former fighter/wreatler who is a gentle and kind guy but needs to hear "stuff" straight and brutally honest and direct, without hurting my delicate feelings (by my own admission). I've always been in leadership roles also, yet Dwayne has managed to never offend me, which used to be easy to do, he always gives great perspective and knows somehow, the complexities involved in my thought process enough to find the proper balanced way to create a dialog of open and easy communication and genuine compassion. Plus, he makes me laugh and although a joker, I present a fairly serious person at first. It is not about me, more, I'm a tough individual to manage at times, but never during a session with Dwayne, even if I'm frustrated with my own struggles. Good guy all around and truly cares. I DO NOT ever have a session where I feel as though I've "told so many people the same story and no one gets it", as with a few in office therapists locally (all great, just not my style). Dwayne gets me working through things that actually make a big difference in my daily interactions on a global state. Taking the step to trust and reach out shows some true fortitude and strength. Suffering in silence and and portraying a, "crying is weak" persona is to exhausting. Reach out to betterhelp. A simple conversation with good people never hurt anyone. Get that done and then decide what's best from there. My long novel is because I used to be a no nonsense hardnosed and could be quite physical imposing but Im actually a calm athlete that has seen all to many strong people, be to scared to help themselves which only requires literally 1 step, sign up. Be well and trust the process♡”